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Never been the best at goodbyes

 GOODBYES some are hard, some are easy... Sometimes you say it, but you don't mean shit... We all know that pain when you don't even want to say it but you have to. Now sit if you are standing and reading this. I want you to feel something. Relax. Think about the person or thing you are about to say goodbye or you already have said. Can this little word would ever be enough to end all your good times and memories? No...never... Something don't die. They don't really have a life span. These things are what makes you think that you are a whole complete being. We are social animals to the core. We want that validation from outside ourselves to make us feel complete. I hope you never feel like being used just coz you liked a part of the bond you had. It's like you had a good time too.

Do take your happiness seriously 😜

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  Is happiness seriously a thing i should talking about?  These days people talk about it a lot. Let's hear it on then.... Once upon a time, one day out of the blue a visitor arrived at the doorstep of really whimsical monk looking for answers. And see the irony of God, god chose this monk for answers.  At first the monk tried to ignore him, as if the person doesn't exist or he is invisible or something. But the stubborn pursuit of this man made him to at least give him a look. So he just glanced. Weeks passed with this no talking session. It could have made a normal man like him to leave that man but his questions would not permit that. After about a month, what changed in that monk he asked the visitor to leave and don't waste his valuable time. But sometimes our desires have that deafening effect to the point that we don't really care what comes next.  Now this old monk as if remembering something from past finally said i don't answer questions i am clearly not a...

Your dreams are now

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  People are what draws me to read psychology. I never appreciate going into people's personal stuff but i like knowing what is their story, where are they coming from, where are they headed, are they going alone or with someone and lastly what their priorities. Coz i only have two priorities: eat and sleep. There's nothing i care more. I dream of eating chocolates till my stomach bursts 😂. Not only this i also imagine myself sleeping more than 10 years and eat and then sleep again. They are really so delicious dreams. I don't feel like waking up.  Similarly, we too have dreams, we too are obsessed. We too take ideas that confirm our self belief. We don't really appreciate any contrary perspective. My dreams are the sole reason i do something other than eating and sleeping to keep going like this.  Although, I know i eat more than necessary and sleep more than 12 hours a day.  Just like me, you too have dreams. My dreams originate because no matter how much i eat or...

Eternal impermanence

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  I was born a t.v. addict. I could literally watch it all day.  Advisory alert: Not all specy are smart. Look at me for more info. Until one day my world turned upside down, things got complicated. My mom said my t.v. got hurt. And i thought no one could ever do any harm to my t.v. . Because my t.v. was harmless, it was nice, it always gave me the variety i needed. For all those who don't know me. I love change. I love it to the point that sometimes i am impatient so sit at same place i have just sat for 5 minutes.  Finally, after 5 nights the miracle man (electrician) made it to function back normally.  Now let me tell you something those 5 days were a inescapable hell for me because I thought I could never survive without it. But i did, didn't I....i am writing this. So everything that happens to or will ever happen will pass. Nothing is always gonna be expect you. Even the joy of eating chocolates is temporary. Nothing is permanent. Don't ever take your problems ...

Your eyes could do miracles if only you want it to.

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  Change the way you look at things, things will start to change.  What is to be changed? Should I stop looking straight at things or look for only that is positive and ignore all the negatives. Maybe yes, maybe no.  When they say you change the way you look at things, you should maybe look at things with a hope that all of this happened for a reason. God wanted something good from you.  Just like you i too am a die hard pessimistic. I look for what is bad in all the good. I enjoy taking out all the mistakes in all the right things i did my entire life.  I changed my perspective when i see people almost die in the OPD. Watching this daily could really be a depressing experience but it motivated me to consider the value of little time i have on earth. I hope this helps you too.

Happy women, happy world

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  I once tried to follow my heart, but soon the people i knew my whole life said it was so unloving and aggressive act. To avoid feeling alone in this big world. I lost something. I lost my ability to excersize control. It was never the fault of that little daughter to choose being loved over doing what she wanted. She only thought so because she thought her desires would change sometime.  A women, is often oppressed by her loved ones. She is often found hiding behind the set of rules that society decides for her.  People teach us what we should be doing instead of what we really want. I always wanted to know who these people were? No one talks about it. People talk about women empowerment, they talk about their profession, they about the clothes she should wear. But when will they ask what we want. This women day think of only one person i.e. you. You really are missing out on so many things.

Mental health

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  In my two decads on this planet, my sole motivation have always been logic and reason i.e. rationality. I thought as if we should always do what is right for us irrespective of whatever we feel.  Until one night... I found myself listening to my extra extra sadistic self talk. I couldn't stop my negative thoughts. They kept coming, i felt so bad that I left my insta even though my best friend was online. I couldn't tell anyone what I felt. I was unable to explain my irrationality. I couldn't think why i was acting as if i was someone else.  This was my first experience with the word mental health. I didn't knew the importance of always being happy for no reason until I almost couldn't have it. There are times when we come out of these phases, sometimes these phases become our life. At these times our days don't seem to end....they seem as if they are endless. Yes there are so many good things to think about. I could have thought about that but I don't know...