Mental health

 

In my two decads on this planet, my sole motivation have always been logic and reason i.e. rationality. I thought as if we should always do what is right for us irrespective of whatever we feel. 

Until one night...

I found myself listening to my extra extra sadistic self talk. I couldn't stop my negative thoughts. They kept coming, i felt so bad that I left my insta even though my best friend was online. I couldn't tell anyone what I felt. I was unable to explain my irrationality. I couldn't think why i was acting as if i was someone else. 

This was my first experience with the word mental health. I didn't knew the importance of always being happy for no reason until I almost couldn't have it.

There are times when we come out of these phases, sometimes these phases become our life. At these times our days don't seem to end....they seem as if they are endless.

Yes there are so many good things to think about. I could have thought about that but I don't know what came over me. Even my mom scolding me was unbearable. I would have breakout sessions that lasted longer than weeks. I am not usually that way but...

What i faced maybe you have gone through that as well. I want you to be free to talk. Letting whatever you feel out. I know it's not that easy but by talking you can make the process easier. Be with people. They will talk you out. They make you think. That's when depression lost its power.

I wish you never feel what i felt. The only thing I would suggest is a good mental diet. Yes, we feed our brains with all the violence and aggression of social media. Our minds needs those *positive diet*. I wish i had that diet before..